Easily seen is the outrage, despair and fear, the ignorance and insensitivity, the failures of the police, lawmakers and politicians, the complex, provocative and polarizing rhetoric and debate, the uncertainty of justice and the swelling distrust in the systems that are meant to ensure our safety.
Hard indeed to see and to carry hope for the possibility of deep and lasting change.
Not only to the controversial and dangerous law that gave a misguided vigilante license to act upon his fear and racism with unnecessary and deadly force.
But also to individual and systemic institutional practices that reinforce our prejudices, feeding and fueling them to become rampant antis-, –isms and -phobias.
Easily seen are the differences between us: skin, hair, race, gender, age, sexuality, religion, education, politics, economics…
Hard indeed to see are the threads that tie us together:
blood, breathe, heart, soul, histories, joy, suffering…
But for my practice of the buddha-dharma,
I might sit heavy with visceral rage, terror, disgust and disappointment.
Stomach-churning, heart-racing, tear-choking, breath-stealing anguish
and others known or unknown to me who could be snatched from their loved ones
so brutally, so easily.
And not just sons, not only males.
Our daughters, mothers, sisters, and aunts are always vulnerable too.
This cruelty, this pain, this suffering does not discriminate.
It leaves no one untouched.
So with my practice I sit.
Breath-, Love- and Hope-filled.
In full trust of the ever-evolving nature of all things.
In full remembrance that there are causes of and an end of suffering.
In full awareness of the victory of each sweet breath.
I sit to cradle my simmering feelings—
giving them space to stretch out, unfold, take new shape in their own time.
They are natural, they are human, they are mine.
Yet they are not me.
Touching the dharma and continuously taking refuge in the Five Mindfulness Trainings, I am determined that my feelings will not feed or fuel choices that are unskillful, harmful or deadly.
I grow steady with each breath.
My anger and fear cool, soften and slowly transform into
the compassionate vigilance of mindfulness.
I listen deeply, see more clearly what is the true, necessary and wise course of action for me in this moment.
I touch the Metta Sutta, sending compassion and lovingkindness
in all directions with every breath
so that any habitual inclination toward anger, numbness, despair or avoidance will be released.
I step back—filtering out the discord, limiting what I consume from the media.
Tuning in—to my breath, my intentions, my dharma, my heart.
From this space, I listen deeply for:
facts, resolution, and the aspirations I hear beneath the pleas for justice.
From this space, I see clearly the faces:
brown as my own,
also darker, lighter—matching the full spectrum of hues and tones of people I know and love—reflecting my sadness, my questions, my aspirations.
From this space, I see clearly the hearts beneath the hoodies.
I feel them beating, bleeding, bursting wide and tender with compassion
for Trayvon Martin, his heartbroken parents and loved ones,
and all others who are suffering from such tragic and profound losses.
Hearing, seeing, feeling completely, I touch those aspirations that connect us all.
I chant them silently, I chant them aloud to my son each night, I chant them for us all.
With each nourishing, energizing, life-sustaining breath:
May we and all beings be happy,
May we and all beings be safe,
May we and all beings be well,
May we and all beings have peace.
My path and practice are affirmed. I know this is the only way for me.
Inspiration behind this post:
- My son: My ray of light, my bell of mindfulness, my clear intention for practice.
- My mate: A miraculous odds-smashing survivor of a random act of road rage, he was shot in the head at 19. He happens to be white. The shooter, who served the minimum sentence on a plea, is black. His parents–my loving “in-laws”—and family members who are models and practitioners of faith and forgiveness.
- The Dhammapada (Verses 252 – 3) as quoted in Come See For Yourself ~ Ayya Khema We read and discussed the chapter “The Faults of Others” in my root sangha (lamc.info) several years ago, and it continues to resonate.
- The Places That Scare You: A Guide To Fearlessness in Difficult Times ~ Pema Chodron I’m currently re-reading this book (slowly digesting the practices), and my bookmark was resting in the middle of her chapter on Compassion.
- Metta for Children ~ InvitingtheBell.com Matt wrote about introducing this “magical” practice to his daughter (exactly one month ago today) and, auspiciously, I read it shortly after putting my own child to bed with thoughts about how to incorporate age-appropriate bedtime blessings into our evening ritual. Every night since, I sing my simple metta chant to him.
- ‘Million Hoodie’ March ~ Newsone.com